Friday, December 18, 2009

Hello friends.


I often wonder how much to share with all of you. I worry, probably too much, about pushing you away through complaining and sharing harder and darker times. I want this place to a light and lovely part of your day and never something you find difficult to engage in. But, I have found, that this little community that has developed is one that is unusually important to me. It's such a supportive and caring group of folks that show up everyday, that it seems wrong not to share this kind of thing. And I've always been one that finds healing though sharing. And here so here I go.

I am having surgery today. For the past month my body has been working on miscarrying a surprise pregnancy. And after lots of blood work and several ultrasounds my doctor tells me that my body can't do this on it's own. The pregnancy was ectopic and I need surgery.

It's sounds like a minor surgery. It will take about an hour. I will be in and out the same day and will be back to my regular crafting shenanigans before I know it. And although I know it's minor and I although I trust this doctor more than I can tell you, the words "sedation" and "incision" still give me the willies. Honestly, I'm scared.

But also feeling so lucky. I must have tucked and re-tucked my boys' blankets around them 75 times last night. I just can't get enough of their small and busy limbs. Their uncontrollable and contagious giggles. And just how very jam-packed and over-pouring with life both of them are. I am a goner for those two.

So, my friends. That's the scoop.
Now I'm off for some serious snuggling, a good start to this difficult day.

22 comments:

kate o. said...

i am so sorry, robyn. praying hard for you this morning. thank you for sharing.

Mama V said...

Praying for you, mama. Your boys will be well cared for while you're being cared for. xoxo

Maria Ontiveros said...

Lots of hugs to you. What a difficult day, and I'm so glad you have your family to snuggle. Take care of yourself - it's not easy.
Rinda

Deb said...

Oh, Robyn, I'm sorry to hear this. I will be thinking of you today. I'm glad you did share your story and I know what you mean about our blog community. It is a special connection in a surprising way. Let us know how you're doing later, ok?

Tara Whalen said...

I love you!

ComfyMom~Stacey said...

Hugs to you! I hope it goes smoothly for you

Melodee Stephens said...

I will be praying for you today Robyn! It just seems like this verse might be appropriate to share to encourage you!
May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit - Rom 15:13

Sian said...

Very, very to hear this Robyn. I'm wishing you all the very best from across the ocean x

Wendy said...

I'm so sorry to hear this, Robyn. Good luck on your surgery. My thoughts will be with you today.

debs14 said...

Oh, you poor thing. So sorry to hear the news. It's never easy to go into hospital for elective surgery, but I am sure you are in very safe hands and they will do what needs to be done and have you home as soon as possible. Snuggling up with those boys will help you heal all the faster.
Sending big hugs across the Atlantic to you. Take care x

Cheryl said...

So sorry to hear about this. Sending lots of good energy your way. Very best wishes.

Cat said...

I wish I had all the right words to make you all better. Will be thinking of you and sending a lot of energy your way.
Get well soon!

Melissa said...

Thinking of you a lot today.

Jennifer I. Walker said...

Thanks for sharing, Robyn. I'll be thinking of you today and sending you lots of good energy and virtual hugs!

Ladkyis said...

Just arrived to read your blog. By this time you are safe at home with your boys. I am sending healing thoughts to give you some healing sleep tonight.
gentle {{{hugs}}}
Thank you for sharing

Marlorie said...

Robyn, many prayers for a quick, uneventful and safe surgery and recovery. xoxo

MandiCrocker said...

Bless you, Robs. Amazed you're finding gratitude in your boys during such a difficult time. Praying for you, friend that makes my day...big hugs.

Rhona said...

So sorry to hear you're having to go through this. I know it'll be a difficult time for you and I'm just glad you'll have your boys to go home to afterwards. Lots of snuggling will be required as you heal from this op. Take care xx

Loralee said...

I hope this finds you home and well, and not too sore to enjoy some more major snuggles. Thinking of you, my friend.

Julie said...

Just saw this today. I hope yesterday was easier for you than you expected. Lots of hugs to all of you! Relax today. Thinking of you! Snuggle those boys!

Stacey and Jayson Lavers said...

It's good to share with those you love and I definitely love you, Robyn! I hope you're okay my friend.

Anonymous said...

Robyn -

I'm SO sorry to read this. How awful to lose a pregnancy -- so very emotional. I'm very sad for you and I pray that you are well, that you heal physically and emotionally.

-Steph