Tuesday, March 23, 2010
I often feel at odds about feeling and expressing pride in my kids. I'm worried that I'll sound annoying. I'm worried I'll sound like I think I have perfect kids. I'm worried I'll make other parents feel like I think my kids are better than theirs. But, since last fall, when a team of professionals assembled to talk about Andrew's weaknesses and what to do about them, I've felt differently about expressing pride in my kids.
I'm not really sure why. But for some reason, it feels safer to say: "Look what he can do!" because he has plenty of well documented things that he struggles with. I guess I feel like I am completing the picture and filling out the other side. I want to be brave and face the things that are hard for Andrew, and I want to be annoying and point the things he does well.
This is one of the things I love about Andrew. I love watching him use his body. I love seeing him fearlessly tackle playground equipment, ropes courses and this rock pier we found at the beach. I love watching him love it. Crazy, but I feel an unusual amount of pride watching him explore a tricky environment. I want everyone to look and see how agile and fearless and adorable he is. Even if it's momentarily annoying. ;)